DC talk could have been right

i love being in the dark. literally, not figuratively. i actually can't stand anything more than being the only one present without a clue. but there is just something about being in the darkness. i find sitting on the back porch swing after sundown utterly irresistible, especially with guitar in hand. it doesn't matter that the noise produced by the friction of my fingers on those strings isn't pleasurable for other people's ears; i like it. other times i enjoy absolute darkness include bedtime, movie time, naptime, class time, wintertime, well...most of the time. but why?
aren't i supposed to want to be in the light, just as He is in the light? and no, that is not a lame reference to DC talk but rather to 1 john 1:7. the problem with light is that it exposes...EVERYTHING. it's natural to flip on the light switch when you walk into a dark house to make sure nobody is hiding in there or to grab for a flashlight when packing for a camping trip. when the electricity goes out, it's typical to light a candle. we want to see what's around us so that we don't stub our toe on a chair or run into another person. our reliance is on the light. but if i get in the light, you'll be able to see me. all of me. and i'm afraid of how you'll respond.